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me want go back to school .

2010-09-15T17:05:00.000+08:00

have so many homework to do , the worst one is account folio .
Hafta study for 36 nilai by this week ..
surely cannot finish one..
rotten at home ..
everyday eat sleep eat sleep ..
boring !!

first week is better ,
at least someone company me .
drove someore .
damn fun !!

monday was terrible !!

6th!!

never ever forget about that day~

although was waiting for a whole day ,

but worth it !!

thanks you bankyak bakyak ~

hope this gonna be a correct decision that we made ~

me love you ttm <33333333

this week is so boring !!
tmr going back pontian !!
gonna eat eat eat eat someore ~
now gonna finish up my folio den continue with playing game !!
waiting for her to come back ~~~~~
looking forward to this sat !!
hopefully that gonna be a great party !!
and hope to have a meet up with her ~~
hehe !!

Looking forward

2010-08-26T18:25:00.003+08:00

So damn bored. In Addmaths tuition rite now. But Don understand a single thing.. Mind is thinkin of other stuff ..

~foods
~how to spend my holidays.
~should I go to school Tmr ??
~6 of sept as well as the present .

Sigh, not in mood .. Not sure whethere wanna try or not. Or Jus trust my feeling without any trying ?? Sigh.

2010-08-26T17:54:00.001+08:00

Stop telling me you're not good enough . You're best that all =)

05/06/10

2010-08-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

today is so not my day .
is so.............................................
speechless sia ..

pls ,if one day i shift my house to mental hospital .
Do visit me there .

no way for my tears to drop now ..
just so not the time .
bear with it for the whole day .
sigh .
whats wrong sia ...

should i give up ??
so not me .
but ,
for her ..
yes i will ...

we shall see .
omg ,
i wonder what i will do the next .
you beta pray hard .
i will get back what i supposed to have .

maybe from the others way round .
keep a distance is beta bahh ..
since you ady made up your decision .
i am here to give you the best wishes !
must be happy alright :)
i wont let her go once she let you down .

jiayou behh feli !!

my sky .

2010-07-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

today ,
gav that shorty her cards .
bullied her with all the kid .
had fun !!
haha.
before tuition ,
went out with manda and harn again .
watch movie , but i don know what movie we watched . tskk !!
but is a nice movie .

15th is open day .
16th is the sg trip .
mampos la .
gonna get scolding from mom .

kinda tired for this few days.keep on fainting without saying nights. after exam's life is so boring . i got nothing to do .sighs . any suggestion other than moral folio ?? digi don love me , keep on having connection problem . so pissed off la wei !

sometimes ,
let go is gonna be the best way .
is easy to say but hard to do so .
i know .
but i don wish to see you getting hurt anymore .
is not worth it at all .
i will wait for that day you become smarter.
not longer the real stupid.
is gonna take a long time ,
but really not mind of waiting for that day ya .
i jus want to see the smile on your face .
i am sure that you can get a better life without her.
let go and move on yeah .
will be with you all along the way !!
jiayou <3

hope that wish will come true.

praying hard !!

was being stupid and blind .

but not longer now .

after all the ups and downs.

finally realised what and which should i go for it .

i am ready for it =D

my silence is just another word for my pain.

2010-06-18T00:52:00.003+08:00

i finally get to find a right ringtone for a right person. Although will let me think back about the past but yeah, i feel better now. When the time of holding , i cant get to find a simple nice softoy. But now ? Everyway i go i do see a nice softoy exactly what i wanted . Now , meaningless for getting it so yeah jus forget it . I'm trying to find a different kind of softoy now .. And ya i took one softoy from someone , now i'm looking at it n i feel much happier .although just a small toy..hmmm..i'm looking forward to d outing l8r wit frens plus dis toy n his owner .nights.

P/s: can don be so blind already? Not worth it , after a year what you have ?sadness ? Sigh..pointless of waiting .

l.o.l

2010-06-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

stop being coward .
if you dare to scold people in public why don you admit ?
no need to find plently of rubbish as your excuses .

you did .
you did .
you did .
i wish to restart my life .

successed .

2010-06-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

wow .
kids we successed to hav a party for that shorty . bullied her too . but this plan is not as well as what we think , next one will be better . and and and , must be better !! their explatation is so so so high !!

waited for so long in mcd .. got some pig agreed to meet at eleven in cs , but ended up ?? woke up at twelve plus n met in leisure mall . reached after that shorty . tsk tsk !!
watched movie , cc keep throwing porcoon .and finally i knew why she bought a big packet for herself and one small one for me . and she waited for so long for kissing part ! but she didnt get to see . haha .. horrible kid !! after movie went for bowling !! idiot them . booked the court still need to wait for half an hour .. played pool with kids while waiting ..

kinda happy to see that stupid turned up !! haha .. she played cheat !! she is supposed to walk back home n i supposed to drive her car back ..nvm la , i am kind enough !!

hav fun during bowling . all played cheat !! eva n rita stopped me from bowl when its my turn !! and der bowl for me , washed the longkang !! actually my team did the same thing to take revenge ! haha..but til the end my team still won !!! lalalalala !! shorty, don jealous arr !!

so yeah , hope that shorty enjoyed herself !!

i am looking forward

2010-06-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

i hav a big mission gonna carry on with the designer and helpers .
hopefully everything gonna be fine and folo the plan .
god bless us la kids ..
we must success with this plan wei ..
jiayou bah ..
after this one we have a bigger mission to carry on .
just treat this as our practise ya .
see you on that day .

badminton .
with yubei , jenny , rita , manda , harn, cindy , slynn .
(sorry for not mention about some of u , coz i don know whether are u going or not )
free to join arr ..

stulang .
to collect rubbish and deal with folio .
jiayou .

after exam ,
this one mar ,
stil so long la ..
thinkk too much .
lol .

well , night everyone ..

i.don.know.

2010-06-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

so not my day .
supposed to hav an outing with aunt in sg .
but mom don allow .
went maths tui .
my house' ceiling got a hole today ; my maid is crying like what only coz of it .
sigh .
til i cant sleep .
so decided to online .
who knw after online i see something i don wish to see .
so yeah .
not in mood .

i don know what am i going to do ?
i wish all this just a dream .
i wish i can wake up asap .
i am tired of being sick of tired .
let me off la can ?
i really wish all this is gonna be a good memories for us .

you . pls , i am sick of listening abt it . whenever i see you , you will just telling me the same thing . i really dowan to know abt all this . if u don learn ur lesson den go ahead , i know love is blind . but do not regret of what u hav done . u wont get all this back again . coz of u , i lost a great fren i lost my smiles with the reason . did i ever blame u for all this ? nope i dint . next time can u pls think before blog abt smth or think before u tok .. no use of blaming urself for something that happened, even u aplogize a billion time to me . sorry i wont accept it .. coz , sorry do not cure anything . i don know wth i gonna reply u , maybe a smile ?? but i do not want to fuyan u . maybe u think tat my short msgs are jus to fuyan u den go ahead . as long as i know what am i doing is nothing wrong then i am fine with it . u will never get back the one you used to know . i am sorry . if you cant bear with it then i not gonna force you to do this so . let it off , i am totally okay with it . i ady gav up of advising you . wanna listen or not up to you .. save all your explainions for me is just craps . i have been listening all this since 2 years ago . is enough for me . i not gonna believe all this anymore . maybe a lot of ppl asking you to choose either one of the both . then , i can tell you that you not nit to choose . no matter what is the answer , don matter to me anymore .. no need to wait for anything ady , the day wil never come . i cant get to find any reason to pressure myself to give in . i will give you sometime to think about it , come back to me when u got ur answer ..so yeah , sorry .

you . although many people keep telling me that not worth it or what . but i just gonna ignore it . i dowan them to spoil your image .. maybe i am true silly , but i cant get any reason for myself not to be silly . well , that million of apologizes you can take back ady . i not think so you nit to apoplogize , there is nothing do with you . with or without your exist, the end of this story is still going to be the same . you didnt not changed any part of this story . but brought away my heart and smiles . if you think that after breaking is a nothing to me or i am ever happier . that you are wrong . i am thinking to move on my life with the rest of thing . i tried to make myself to be tired just not to think about it . but i am failed to do that so .. i shall just accept the fact that you're leaving . nit times . i don know how long i need but stil ............ hmmm .. i marked my words , once u choose to leave here , the same goes to me . i am leaving here too . nothing to feel bad ,nothing to feel guilty .pls do not blame urself anymore , it jus pissed me off .. fyi: you're not just a passer-by who said hi to me .you're someone who marked a part of my life .

to some SMART people.
sick d .
hopefully she will get well soon .
take care arr ..
rest well .

dhd told xhd that dhd miss the old xhd which is happy-go-lucky .
yup xhd do .
but .......
xhd wont be back that happy-go-lucky xhd d .

冰淇淋

2010-06-05T23:41:00.001+08:00

冰淇淋.
融化了,就算放回冰箱里.
都不能变回原型.
以失去原来的容貌.

失去后才懂的珍惜,
那就太迟了.
不可能回到从前.
一切都随那一次的伤心难过离去.
都是历史了.

不想在强求.
我累了.

你.他.
都是过去.
而,我....
并不期待未来.
这一切以足够了..

我只希望你能得到属于自己的快乐.
我会祝福你的.

imy

2010-05-23T18:49:00.000+08:00

i miss you .
i miss all the phone call.
i miss the moment of waiting.
i miss the concern.
i miss all the time we had .
i miss everything about you .

anything happen ,
i am always here with you .
imy !

end .

2010-05-23T18:43:00.001+08:00

i don know.
is the same feeling i had in the past two years .
i really don want this nightmare to come again .
i had it enough with that .
i got nothing to be regret , because i gave the approval .
sigh .

you.
i am alright .
just take it as i no creadit .
give me sometime .
sorry .

2010-05-16T16:04:00.001+08:00

Not gonna hear 'Ding dong" from my phone.
miss tat sound.
But,
Never ever get to hear it again from my phone.

I'm here to pray..
May god bless her in everythin.
Her safety and health.
Father god,
pls giv her d happiness n bring away all her sadness.
She nit ur peace n strength..
i'm here to pray wit all d name of father god.
Amen.

感觉都不同了.

2010-05-16T14:41:00.000+08:00

去了同样的地方.
吃了同样的食物.
做了同样的事情.
到了同样的时间.
见了同样的他.
但,
我并找不回同样的感觉.

在cs流淌了整个下午.
到了许多地点.
整路上陪伴我的就是一位朋友与含在眼框的泪水.
在和他一起走过的每一个地方,
每一道路.
都有深深的回忆.

一踏进麦当老.
以忍无可忍,
眼泪落下了.

我依然期待.
每个星期三和星期五.
等待他的简讯.

每夜,
泪水陪伴我入睡.
好怀念过去.

~~"拿得起,放得下'~~
我做不到!!
但,
为了你的快乐.
我正在学习当中.

13.05.2010

2010-05-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

一切都结束了.
又回到了原点.

没有人能和我讲电话.
没有人会在和我一起等候每个月的28号.
没有人让我准备礼物.
没有人会让我期待和他的午餐.
没有人会在打我的头.
没有了.

都在我预料当中,
但. 太突然了.

对不起,
请原谅我的不好.
没有办法让你开心.

谢谢你,
给我的一切.
你让我体会了许多新体验.
也让我学会了许多.

曾经说过,
为了你,我宁愿做任何事只希望你能快乐.
不在强求你了.
不在勉强.
我接受这一切.

但,
只希望你能永远的快乐.

本人会永远得在此等候.
有任何是随时随地都能找我.
我对你许下的每一个承诺并不会消失.
在我心目中,你还是在同一个位置.
无人能取代.
虽然,
不能句上最完美的休止符.
但,
你将句上我的故事中的休止符.

我并没有守着我自己的承诺.

泪水依然的陪伴我.

谢了,
在我身边支持我的每一位朋友.
你们为了我做的这一切.
我感激不经.
在给我多一些时间吧.
我相信,
时间是唯一的解药.
时间会让我从新振作.
时间将证明一切.

ehh , hello ?? what kind of fren are you ??!!

2010-05-13T22:24:00.003+08:00

ehh ..
which kind of fren are you ??
need to do until like this or not ?
cant you like just wait for a few days just for the sake of making me feel better ??
i know la you asked before .
but no need like this also can .
hmmm .
if you're gonna treat her like your everything .
like the way you treat c.f
then i wont stop you from anything .
i will give you my best wishes .
if you are just gonna take her as a replacement .
then forget it !!
i wont let you go either .
i wont let you to hurt her .
she is not a reserve for u .

tired tired tired.

2010-05-13T21:19:00.002+08:00

i am so freaking tired .
my phone in a dying state .
but , please don die .
i need you !!

sien,
have a new timetable for duty .
tuesday- afternoon .
wednesday to friday - morning .
wont be in school for four days .
no fun already .
gonna be tiring , darker n so far so on .
going to have fun during duty ,
hope i do enjoy it .

anyway ,
i don know what should i do .
i don kinow what is going on .
i don know wth have i done in my past life .
i don know what am i thinking about .
i don know .

lalala.
don think .
don bother .
don care .
don sad .
don cry .

i wish i can be back the happy go lucky de feli .
i wish someone is here with me .
i wish to say everything out .
i wish i can control my temper .
i wish i can find a way of solution .
i wish she don exist in my world .
i wish everything can be done .
i wish to gain eveything.
i wish .i wish . i wish .

i shall keep my words to myself .
no more tear .
no more punching .
no more cutting .
no more mood swings .
no more ily .
no more imy .
no more . no more . no more !!

think back of everything . sigh !!

lalalalalalalalalalalalala.
feli is not in mood .
feli feel like shouting .
feli feel like scoldng .
feli feel like throwing everything .
goshhhhhhhh .

mind full of thing.
but non of a single thing do with my studies .
gosh .
exam coming .
before exam me going for holiday !
holiday with history .
history please fall in love with me .
siao already .

i shall focus on my studies .
i shall clear my mind .
jiayou for studies .

is time for me .
to learn how to give and take .
to learn how to gain something i want.
to learn how to be patient .
to learn how to make a right decision.
to learn how to tell a white lie .
to learn how to control myself .
to learn how to lead my own life .
to learn how to take things lighter .
to learn to appreaciate everything .
to learn many many many thing more .

so yeah .
accept this fact already .
time is gonna bring away my sadness .
i believe time can tesify everything.
i believe in myself .
i believe in god .

NOT IN MOOD :(

my life .

2010-05-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

ohh . i am so tired for this few days . actually not that busy too but , no idea why i am so tired .

my new chapter of my life .

thanks alot to grand my wish .i know that is hard for you and me to start a new chapter of life . but i am seriously tired . i think this is a better way for both of us too . hmm ya , no point of waiting kay ?? but thank god , we didnt fight over those stupid matter . just remain like this will do ? lastly . thanks you for everything that you have do for me . iamsosorry.

sigh.
i prefer to be honest to you .
but i doubt that i have make a wrong decision .
maybe as what they said,
don know everything is the best .
but ,
i feel so bad to keep something from you .
maybe you don mind or don care .
i cant stop you from anything .
so yeah,everything is just up to you .
as what someone said , me n ****** are not a good sis .
ya i shall admit i am not .
i did make you sad , down & disappointed
for quite a few time .
is my bad .
but ,
sometime i really got no idea why .
argh .
should i give up on this time ?
god arr ,
do not play all this with me weii ..
i will die because of heart attack .
gosh ,
can someone whack me ?

to someone who is busybody !
FOR YOUR IMFORMATION ,
there are non of a single thing do with you . can you just keep your mouth shut ? that gonna peace can ? seriously cant tahan you man .no idea how the hell she can tahan . tsktsk . everything happened also have your business like that . if you are gonna comment about someone please do think about your ownself first. comment about others but you are doing the same thing , no , is even worse .well .there is a limit for everything , please do not mess me or anyone around me anymore . i had it enough . let say , you are that great ad wonderful , i doubt now i am facing all this problem can arr .. duhh .. all thank to you , i have to deal with all this problem . cant you just leave her with me and leave my matter to me ?? i know youlh . but i don care !!"NOW IS TEMPORARY BREAK , JIU HAO SHI HAVE A REAL BREAK" this line is so familiar rite ?? it came out from your mouth . ya la i know , it really happening , you gonna be the most happiest one what right .. argh ..why this kind of human will exist in my life ?? my frens who know me well should know i don used to hate poeple , the most just dislike .. but ,i hate you !!!

i don care .
this is me , me is who am i .

omg .

2010-04-29T23:55:00.002+08:00

felt so bad !! me actually forgot that mom birthday is on this sat .
i keep thinking is on the next sat .luckly we discussed about the plan of going to library, onli i knew labour day is on this sat !! siao liao la me . havnt order cake . card not yet draw . i not mean it one . too blur ady . sorry sorry . pls don tel my mom . hee .

H.A.P.P.Y.
just.have.a.talk.with.babi.thru.the.phone.
miss ya babi <333333333333333333333333333

finally.

2010-04-28T01:04:00.003+08:00

i can sleep with a smile on my face d .
no more tears on my face .
finally !!
i am so happy !!!
wakakakakakakakak

you're forgiven .
iloveyoumorethaneverything.

28.04.2010

2010-04-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

babi babi !!
happy one month anniversary .

we shall think back to 13th of feb ?
we start msging since that chinese new year's wishing msg .
everything start from tat msg .

i do not wnt anything ady .
i jus wan u to be happy .
seriously .tat all !

i willing to do anything for it .
as long as one day she still in ur heart .
i doubt u can giv me the chance to gain everything .
or anything .
so yeah , evearything hust depends on you .

anwyays .
takecare alwix !
loveeee

fun in school .

2010-04-27T22:53:00.003+08:00

having fun during history class !!so long time never play til so siao liao .happy happy ..but feel so bad to scare sl .
sorry la ..
yu sian chin , lung sze lynn !
how dare you to put xiao qiang inside my pencil case ?? halfway studyin sej , i put the fake lizard on sl shoulder . haha . is so damn fun . we wanted to throw the fake lizard to 4pa3 !! but didnt get to scare them . haha .wl threw the xiao qiang to me . then teacher saw n rampas it !! sad wei ..
lung , thx u arr . i hav fun today !!

woohoo , tmr so gonna make sushi !!
coconut tree mummy !!
thx u for everything tat u hav do for me.
being my side when i am sad or happy .
we went thru kinda alot of stuff together , did we ?
u reli reli accompany me alot alot .
u comforted me .
tel me joke .
even came out with a lie jus wan me to let go of my anger .
want me to bo happy.
but , i wont throw my anger to you one la !!
haha..
i am much better ady mummy .
the siao de coconut is back !!
i really appreacieted .
how lucky am i to have a great fren aka mummy like u !
if jus now u reli outside my house rhen i seriously gonna be super touch til cry wei .
haha .
i wont let all dis to effect my mood n sudies .
i promised u that u wil get to see me in courts !!
really thx alot :)
ly !!

laoda yb ,
haha . i wont cry de !!
or else u must think how to comfort me .
i make ur life easier la hor ??
still ,
thanks you so so much !!
for lending me ur ears !!
and evertything .
thx thx =)

stone !!
thxxx alot alot hor !!
i wil giv u stone as a present to thx u !!
haha ..

dhd!!
that is to much of word i wanna tel u !
conclusion la ?
thx alo alot .
evan i am not suppose to thx you .
but u must accept it hor !!

so yeah ,
thanks alot to those company me n be der with me !!

i.am.speechless.

2010-04-26T23:04:00.004+08:00

woah ,
i am just speechless.
i don know what feeling me should have .
sad ??
angry ??
disappointed ??
i not think i am just disappointed or sad.
maybe sad n disappointed til no feeling d .
is hurtful to hav this kind of feeling .
this kind of feelin didnt appear in my life for quite a long time , but now coming back again .
sigh .
it sucks to the core .
seriously ,
out of billion of words , i cant find a single word for my feeling .
feeling like crying but don hav tear to cry .
can you imagine how sad this case is ??
what should i do ?
should i voice up or something ?
or mayb continue to be mute ?
jus keep my mouth shut ?
this is what can i do for the sake of don blow thing bigger ??
maybe like dis thing wont hav any quarrelment ?
but i doubt thing can settle ,
i am so coward now. is so not me .

god please tell me what should i do ?
let go and move on ?
for the sake of letting her to feel better?
if this gonna work , i not mind .
but ,
if isn't work ?
hmmm .

all this jus like a dream for me .
but this is a truth that i hafta face it .
so yeah , feli come on !!
i doubt how strong can i be .

kinda alot of ppl telling me ,
this place not belongs to someone n yet is others .
at first ,
i really confident that i had made a correct decision .
but now ,
i got no idea why ,
all my confident just gone ?

maybe i'm not as good as her or something .
i knew that she matter u alot.
she was , and she is stil .
i daren't to compare anything with her .
n yet .
i think is useless to compare .
2 years time compare to one month ,
got a big distance d .
i don ask anything else ,
other than ,
i wan u to be happy .
hmm .
but i will always do my best for u alright .
i not gonna force you to do anything you not willing to .
as long as you will be happy ,
den i willing to do anything for it .
even let go .
although is so hard n hurt for myself .
but i don care n don mind.
i jus hope that u will be happy .
is that so so hard ?
if myself cant bring any happiness to u ,
den i shall jus draw out n giv the chance to someone can make u happy .

me as a human being ,
ofcoz i MIND .
I MIND THAT YOU STILL CANT PUT DOWN.
I MIND THAT YOU STILL LOVE .
I MIND THAT YOU STILL LIVE UNDER THE DARK.
I MIND . I MIND . I MIND .
but ,
there is nothing that i can do .
is coz ,
iloveyoutoomuch.morethatwhatareyouthinking.

i.am.so.speechless.
i.am.so.helpless.
i.am.so.useless.
i.am.so.coward.
nitex .

i don know .

2010-04-22T19:29:00.002+08:00

i don know what is going on .
i don know what actually happened .
i don know what can i do .
i don know what feeling should i have .
i don know what i am thinking .

gosh .
i realyy don know anything about it .
feel damn useless .
helpless .

seems that everything is okay but actually isn't .
now ,
i just feel like go to you and sort everything out .
but .
too bad i can't .

can someone tell me what is happening ??
feeling tells me that is a far distance .
i don want .

2010-04-15T00:34:00.003+08:00

come on babi .
don sad d .
i dowan u to sad
i rather to take all this sadness from u
whenever u're sad ,
i am ever sad than you do.
whenever u're happy ,
i am ever happy than you do .
do u noe abt this ?
i just only told manda then is actually what u mention about .
gosh
i can predict future .
my feeling is just right .

18 days only ,
second time !!
u're jus great !!

my poor finger !!

2010-04-15T00:13:00.002+08:00

i typing with 8 fingers now .
is so damn slow !!
and cacat .

all thanks to fang .
play basketball like playing what only .
sigh .
senget weii .
swollen someore .
tsk tsk .
pain sia .

get well soon ya my poor fingers !!

sad .

2010-04-14T23:51:00.001+08:00

omg.
i don know why i am sad .
actually i know , but don know how to explan.
jus kind of feeling .
maybe jus miss her too much behh ..
hugging the smelly shirt .
feel much better.
haix haix .
unbelievable that imissbabi so much .
hope that she will be back as soon as possible .
but,
school still gonna reopen .
sigh

hmm.
i don care,
no matter what is going on.
no matter how far apart are we .
no matter whatever or anythng happen .
my heart still with you .

whenever you are facing any problem ,
whenever you are sad or down,
whenever you are not feeling well ,
turn back , i will be at there with you .
you are nt alone kay ??

just a silent heart here ,
to pray that you in a sound and safe condition .
that is enough .

and ya ,
for your information.
do not have any carrot exist in my world .
all already became carrot juice.
my heart is just small and nice to keep you inside there .
with full of lock .

hmmm ,
just abit of awkwardness whenever i see her .
just feel bad towards her and her .
that not gonna be a problem between we both .
i beleive .

sign ,
babi!!
missyou alot alot :(
heart !!
nitex ya babe ..
huggie

edlyn heng.

2010-04-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

14th of april.
hello .
hi.
edlyn heng !
happy 5th months annivesary ya .
thx u for the pooh , is reli cute wei .
he is on my bag ..
haha ..
and the paper hearts n chocolate ya .
doesnt matter wad present u gave, as long as that is from u den i wil like .
thx alot ya :)

SORRY FOR NOT COMING FOR YOUR CELEBATION HOR !!!!!!
haha..
surpised rite ??
haha..
who asked u to bluff me last year.
don know hu arr went muar!!
den now u kena lo .

15th of april.
some monkey' birthday ya .
wondering who is the monkey hor ??
edlyn heng !!
kay la ,
happy birthday ya mei .
may god bless u in everythin that u do .
must buck up for ur studies hor i don care .
or else u noe la.
so yeah ,
must enjoy ur day ya !!
someone surely happy lo so many present !!
oi ,
must handle wit care ar tat wallet !!
i don care
or else u know la
hergh
haha.
lastly,
happy sweet 15th ya
smile alwix.
stay crazy .
all the best ya sis !!
i heartyoualot..
huggie !!

. . .

2010-04-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

my blog is so damn died .

i just came back from badminton competition. we actually "pacat kaki " during badminton .funny betul la . tired tired !!

recently ,i don know what feeling should i hav .i don ever what we both thinking about .i think we really have communication problem .i just tired of holding something that i not feel like holding anymore.i think let go is gonna be a better way .i'm sorry to say this but i doubt i can take it anymore.sigh . just wait and see la . speechless .

28th .
i love this date wei .iloveyousomuchlababi.
just great to hav a babi like you . hee .

ramdom

2010-03-16T20:49:00.001+08:00

seriously ,
i do not know what should i do now .
i hope that i still can giv you one more chance
but
i don know what reason to tell myself just give you one more chance .
sigh .

happy anniversary

2010-02-14T22:01:00.002+08:00

happy 3th anniversary ya mei !!
three month already:}
haha
heart alwix and forever ya !!

disappointed

2010-02-13T09:20:00.002+08:00

for the past three years , i always trust you full-hearted .
do my best for x .
for you .
i knew that you are biase. but didnt know you will do until so over .
you prefer her , coz ?? you wanted her ..
hmmm

i finally know what kind of people are you .
people talk bad about you , i keep helping you to explain to them you are not what they are thinking. but i am seriously regret to that so .
what is the reason you don let me take part ?? coz of zhuai ?? iszit the truth ?? i hope this is not but since is a reality , i shall accept it ..
i think , no matter what i do for you or x doesn't matter to you already .. or never matter you at all ..whatever crap that you said to me just all lie !! no matter what i did , you never look into eyes before .. i am so stupid that i still helping you with my true hearted. sigh .. you actually did this to me .

well , i shall not do anything and let her to preform rite ?? you think how great is she then just let it be , but you gonna regret of what you doing now ..

you changed to a person that i never know you .
i seriously disppointed with you .

i am back

2010-01-24T13:54:00.002+08:00

lol ..
my blog is dead !!
thx to the lighting ..
computer just came out from hospital !!
lalalala ..
at the same time , i am lazy to online !!
tired la !!

please ,
treasure everything that you hav.
i cant afford to lose you .....

14.12.2009

2009-12-14T13:24:00.001+08:00

happy one month annivesary ya !!
hearts you alwix <333333333333

you.are.driving.me.crazy.

2009-12-08T20:27:00.002+08:00

you !!
i don know what language should i tok with you .
i don know what should i tel you .
i don know what are you thinking .
i don know what is wrong with you .
i jus donno !!
why a small matter you must sco like i murder somone ??
like an outing ??
i asked you for few time not jus once kay ??
you are the one hu allow, but you are the one hu sco me n create problem .
not the first time anymore .
nit to shout like somone gonna kill you or smth ??
ishh ..
you !!
spoiled my birthday !!
even birthday u also cant stop naggin and scolding .
well ,
i am really really disappointed !!
first year of my birthday , tears drop .
thx to you !
i don care abt the cake ,
but you reli made me v v v sad abt the way u are now !!
you sco me , i keep quiet den you sco again for keep quiet !!
you sco me , i voice up den you said i tok back !!
wadde hell la ??
den wad you wan me to do ??
run away from house and igrone you ??
seriously i will if you still forcing me like dis !!
i admit , on times i lost control and tok back .
but ,
i reli cant stand it anymore .
i jus wanna say out wad i thinking of u ,
but i wont tok to u face by face ,
jus to igrone quarrel wit u .
do you think i like to be like now ??
no i don !!
i told myself i will tahan ..
but i failed !!
i ady donno wad reason should i tel myself to tahan !!
hmm ..

whenever i said smth , u ask me not to compare with others .
but .
you like to compare !!
but u never think of urself !!
how others behave is totally diff from you !!
you keep blame me for being like now ,
dont think u hav to think abt urself before blaming me ??
do u think u are alwix on the right side ??
as mom ,
you wil be wrong at times ,
why dont you admit ??
alwix lookin at the way u sco dem ,
it is hurtful !!
and now
is my turn !!
der fight or wad ,
i sco dem den you sco me for scolding or beat dem up .
but if i don ??
you sco me for not being a good sis !!
wadde ??
den wad should i do ??
you alwix blame sharon or alicia jus coz of ben ??
do you noe how der both will feel ??
how i feel ??
honestly ,
i gettin to hate him more and more !!
al ur fault !!

why cant you be patient and giv us time to express how we feel ??
i think dis wil be much beta than everyday get ur scolding and nagging ??
why cant you de more understanding ??

i noe u stress abt ur job ..
but shouldnt throw ur anger on me rite ??
haixxx ..
i reli don feel like toking to u !!
i rather go work !!
at least no nit to listen to ur wonderful voice !!
argh !!
you reli drive me crazy !!
coz of u ,
dis year is my worst birthday that i never hav in my 15 years of life !!

i.am.really.sorry.for.what.i.have.made.you.angry.or.down.
i.hope.you.will.change.

7 of dec

2009-12-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

haha ..
thanks you guys for giving me a nice birthday !!
went out with nat early on the morning , met junwen , peishi and her cousin !! we catched a movie !! jump !! is lame but is nice .. lol .. went sunflower to met manda , jan and harn !! haha .. didint noe jan n manda wil be der !! kaka ..
suddenly , face some stupid problem !! ishh , but nat settled it !! thx ya !! hmm .. went badminton with dem too , met yubei and cindy at court !! haha .. first time of seeing harn and peishi swimming !! lol ..

our miss Yubei fetch us to somewhere for steamboat i think at taman molek bahh .. not sure .. haha.. i was really suprised , edlyn you bluff me la ?? lol ..

thanks alot alot to Edlyn , manda , harn , nat , peishi , cindy , jan and yubei for giving me a great celebration !!
thanks to everyone who wished me !! by msg , in facebook or call !!

thanks alot alot !! i am finally 15 !! woohoo !!

public holiday

2009-11-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

haha ,
planning to go redbox with all my cousins .
but so bad la , no room liao !!
tsk ..
but still going somewhere lo !!
haha .. .
uncles wanan go seaside !!
hopefully hav fun !!

i found this line is cute

2009-11-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

ihateyouihatehermorebutihatemyselfthemost.

what the hell you doing this to me ??
freaking me out.
i donno what feeling should i have !!
but,
really disappointed me .
dot dot dot.

stupid !!

2009-11-26T23:53:00.003+08:00

omg
is freaking me out man !!
what the hell la she doing this to me ??
keep asking me to change phone but she dowan pay for me , just ans her no money and i get scolded like mad .. like i murder huever !! ish ish ish !!
kanasai betul !!!

outing

2009-11-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

haha !!
went out with manda , harn , szelynn , mellissa (sorry if spelling wrong) and ade !!
went damai for badminton lo .. so sorry im late !! kaka .. the first time manda kena smack by our miss tan yi harn !! lol .. poor her weii kena eye .. tsk stk !!
ade went and fetch us , haha .. went redbox lo .. pic mar , havnt curi from manda !! haha .. hav fun lo !! thx u ppl ^@^

sony road show

2009-11-26T23:40:00.003+08:00

haha
first of all , sorry for late post !!
tsk..
having fun and seriously learn alot alot !!
money not this easy to earn !!
haha ..
i am just crapping here weii !!
lol
you guys should view our miss nevell koh and yap yee hung ' blogs la ..
haha ..

manda !!
thx you manda for supporting me when the first day !!
and sorry aunty i blur never see the black colour one !!
haha .. (shhhhhhhhhhh)

manda and harn ,
thx you for visited me !!
and you manda !!
reli suprised me
you actually pierced ur ears !!

lol lol lol
did alot of diu nian' things ,
but i enjoyed alot !!

ehh esther !!
you really gave me a shock can arr . but arr , nvm la luckly i don hav heart attack la !! lol .. serious now , we settled everything rite ?!!! no problem anymore ya bro ? haha..

ehh nevell !!
chill la kay , after all this we will never see ahhem face liao !! just treat it as a lesson behh ?? haha .. you not bad arr !! ahhem !! and and and , your challenge success d weii !!

ehh yee hung !!
you damn chio can arr , you must belanja us the after taking money !! haha .. you're the best promoter d la !! haha ..

haha ,
to u all ( yee hung , esther , nevell , audrey)
i am super duper mega bega sorry !!
for not able to attend our celebrations !!

14.11.2009

2009-11-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

i will never forget about today !!
14.11.2009 !!
11.11 pm !!

haha ,
i know that i'm too random for giving you answer !!
coz ,
shocked lo !!

hmmm ,
jus wanna to tel you that ,
iwilltrymybesttodothebestforyou =D
heartssssssssssssssssssssssss !!!!

shopping day

2009-11-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

haha .. went to buy cream for ears n met aunt!! aunt n mom argue all the way to old folk house !! coz of the way to go there , they are lame as usual lo !! almost go to pontian coz aunt drive too fast !! tsk !! reached old folk house after they arguement !! go der to visit my mom de uncle !! first time of visiting , damn scaly one actually !! got a weird feeling ,, tskk .. feel v poor thing to tat uncle !! hmm ..

after tat, they both continue agrue abt where to go on next !! mom wanted to go jusco but aunt wanna go sutera mall !! the end , went jusco !! haha .. met natt der , and she helped me with my ears again !! lolxx .. i was being maid for the few hours !! kelian betul !! lol .. i buy nth , but they both bought alot !! haha ..

went reached home , my youngest aunt called me !! she wanna belanja me dinner in cs !! woohoo !! shopping again lo !! jam like kanasai !! kaka .. bought alot of food back for the rest hu stay at home to play comp !! 15 cups of cool blog , the sell gal gonna kisiao la !! haha.. many ppl giv me tht look =.= haix

went back , everyone gather at my house !! n 3 of dem started agrue again !! this time der agrue abt where to go n cerebrate my aunt n uncle de birthday !! the end , i think going to redbox !! haha .. long time didnt go !!!

oops , sorry frens !! for not able to attend the celebration coz mom don allow !! long story la !!sorry again

finally

2009-11-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

thrusday , having pesta .. lol .. so damn tired one !! actually hatfa go for high jump but brenda n me too lazy to go , so the end we both skip !! haha ! having fun during pesta !! damn bu shuang with some stupid lo !! she actually insulted netball even sco f word !! if she is not in the netball court i surely giv her a tight slap !! ish her man !! forget it , she memang stupid , manda you should noe ?!! haha .. having fun too when playing basketball with manda,mei foong , wen qian!! mei foong tot tat manda donno wad is basketball !! laugh like mad ppl la !! kaka

after pesta , went cs with manda n vivyan !! and meet jacelyn , tee yong ,michael , adrian , sze lynn and wei lin *cough* ... lol .. watched 2012 !! i almost quarrel with tat oty !! manda will slap him if she know him , riye manda?? haha .. werehelping vivyan to find her phone in cinema !!sca ppl la she !! lol .. n n n , someone kinda care abt her !! keep peep at her !! wakakakakakakakakak !!! ahhem !! after movie , finally i pierced my ears !! woohooo , manda's fren helped me to pierce !! lol ..after pierced my ears onli that gal told me i'm her first customer !! omg la weii .. n manda abandon me halfway !!!!!!!!tsk tsk !!

friday !!!!!!!!!!!
closing ceremony for all the activity after pmr !! lol .. 3E damn rock la !! we won johan for netball , hoki n tarik tali !! we're the juara for overall weii , we won two big hampers !! hahaha !!!!!!!! i actually can do paper cutting == siao liao lo me !! kaka .. it was last day for all the f5 seniors , kinda sad weii !! took pic wit dem but i got non of the pic wit me !! zadao rite ?? lolxx ..
after skul , went cs with manda , harn , stefi n cindy !! haha .. watched movie again !! 2012 again for manda n me !! we both actually pinis inside lo !! n sleeping too !! kns betul !! i got scolded from mom in cinema !! ish !! bother la , we continue to play like crazy lo in cs !! tskk .. thx nat for helping me with my ears !! actually swollen !! haha ..damn paiseh la , wanna go back tat time saw someone looks like my primary fren !! we both looked at each other but didnt say hi o anything until she phone me !! haha .. coz we both not comfirm abt hu we are to each other on tat time !! lolxxx .. went to foon yew one to support bro n cousins !! damn bored one la !! so damn tired laaaaaa !!!!

but hav fun !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

2009-11-07T15:05:00.002+08:00

haha .computer finally came back again .. lol .. forced by my mom to play pet society .. is so lame but is fun for the time being now .. haha .. is so boring weii , facebook so lag la !! nvm nvm !!

suddenly think of the 4 stupid fellow , omg !! soon their family will get to feel aall the pain that we felt before of losing a family member .. they gonna dead of murder !! but is so .. donno how to tel her when she grows up n understands everything . hopefully she able to accept this fact weii .. 8 years is coming .. sad sehh !! but cant do anything also , consider as his fault for not listening to mom ?? no idea or maybe is god will ..till now ,i think the situasion still being the same or maybe worse , i got no idea actually ..should accept this as a fact n challenge ?? lol .. i think i should , omg .. i donno what is on their mind weii n did something so damn stupid !! haixx .. so tired of acting infornt of her esp when the time she ask for the real reasons !! is so scaly too , sca to hurt her but no choice lo !! mom asked us to learn about forgive n forget !! i think i jus can forgive them but never forget !! i shouldnt forgive them at first , maybe forgive will be the best way to cheer my family up !! forget about this matter jus impossible !! looking at their pic in newspaper , i reli cant control my angers !!
that feelin not everyone can understand !! is so hurt !!

we miss you ,
&
you gonna stay in our heart for life time !!

hmmmm

2009-11-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

time flying withtout us knowing , 9 days more gonna be one year d .
in this one year ,
alot of thing happened..
begining of everything i tot i able to put down everything about you ..
n meet someone else ..
but ,
by time passing onli i realise all this , and think about all this for a lont time .

whenver i'm down o wad ,
you are the one come in my mind.
i feel very free to chat with you since that day we knew until now..
and
i know who is the one i really nit..
but ,
jus can blame myself for not cherish all this ..
im so wrong weii !!
really silly sehh ..
haix.

hmm ,
i shall apologize for this,n do not expect her for anything else .
seriously don know what should i do already .
all this call as fate ??
hmm ..
i dowan to play this kind of game anymore..
speechless weii , donno wad to say n my mind jus gone blank when saw that msg from fren ..
even my feeling ady told me the ans wont be the ans i wanted .
my feeling came true again . .
i do not noe how i feel now ..

haix ..
can we jus ,
let bygones be bygones ??
this gonna be the best gift for me .
hmmm

hahahahahaha

2009-10-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

today went to skul n nth to do as usual !! forced by teachers to dance that dance !! lol.. went out with manda n harn to watch movie .. micheal jackson . haha.. actually harn n me kena tipu !! we don even noe jennifer body is a ghost movie !! we two were shouting there !! lol.. but the end we didnt get to watch coz that lady dowan to sell us the tickets ! haix ! i went in n slept , too over tired tats y la.. i slept for 3times at least in the cinema !! but not as wad manda said !! went in ten times n sleep eight times !! helped mom to buy stuff den now i left with 4 bucks !! sad sehhh ..

i really do wish to get back like last time , used to kisiao together !! but i think no more chances . sigh .

lol

2009-10-22T11:20:00.002+08:00

tired seh .. helping with xmas concert and went out with ade , manda , nat , lung and sf .. that lung injured her wonderful leg during ballet ..she went and visited doc ..jus .. muscle cramp !! lol
i found dis funny weii lung but you do take care noe !! kaka .. went for movie WHITE OUT .. so disgusting one tat show , not in a rite mood too !! worried like like lo the three of us ( manda , nat and me ) but the end nth la thx god weii !!

lol.. today skip skul coz lazy to go plus tired too !! get scolded by mom coz i woke up too late (9a.m) ish .. nvm , i get scolded for the second time , from my bus driver !! coz i didnt go to skul .. ish !!!

to the one going to work at converse !!
do take care noe , jus igrone that jipak kia will do alright.. jiayou behh !!

arghhh ..

seriously do not noe what you thinking la ,

since ady is the fact y cant you jus let go and move on??

alwix find me o her ,

but we both cant help and feel pekcek noe o not !!

all dis matter nobody can help other than urself can arr ..

haix ..

damn la ..

can you like stop scolding ur bloody f-ing words ??

jus a small matter la weii

hmmm ..

few days ago , i saw you will her and heard abt her ..

which she not willing to say

why you wanna force her fren to tel you ??

cant you respect her ??

ishh ..

wad do you mean by she is not fair ??

she got the rite to choose ppl and share her secrets

tht all !!

and enough i tel you !!

i bear it with long time ago same goes to her ..

tata .. gonna work later !!

late post

2009-10-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

damn pissed off with my mom , don allow me to go out wit ade der all same go to serhan they all just coz she just got a misunderstanding thanks to my sis !! crap la !! hopefully get her permission to go out on this saturday . sigh .

sunday went out for badminton with pn Emilda and those ppl . meet manda at cs . OMG so malu la everyone looking at both of us like monsters only thanks to the very small racket bag . huhux .. saw szelynn in cs !! teacher late for 15 mins and she made both of us walked here and there !! levis and RHB !! we both didnt know where is RHB actually , asked the guard there =.=
enjoyed playing badminton !! CONVENT v.s SSI !! we won for two games and fyi , SSI both are boys . lol . cant tahan pn Emilda weii .. the way she laugh is reli reli weird !! lol .. had alot of fun sia .. but , whole body aching ! luckly monday no school if not habis la !! kaka .. rite after badminton , went work .. super duper tired lo !

monday !!
holidays but i went for work for the whole day ..earning money reli not easy weii .. lol .. those kids very cute la .. so sleepy and bored lo during working time !! as usual !! went for PA class , damn la .. so luan one !! haix

tuesday !!
buzy for the whole morning .. helping to do those things for xmas concert !! huhux , had lunch with mom and her frens.. long for once .. just back from working !!already wanna kena kek si !! tsk tsk , donno what is my sis doing to school !! kanasai betul la !!
( pls human , not to so big mouth can arr , that is her personal things arr can )

donno why link to choco sehh ..

hmm

wondering !!

finally

2009-10-13T23:05:00.005+08:00

we have been waiting for today for a long time !! finally , we're merdeka from PMR.. no more PMR !! full of activities..today went out with manda,ade, natt n lung . poor them hatfa wait for so long but i knew you all hav FUN rite ?/ lol ..today seriously tired!! but we're planning for mor events .. kaka..thinking back, three years just past by like this, times really flies .. had gone thru alot of LONG DAY but i think worth it beh .. hope that really worth it . feel so touched actually , but also feel bad . i'm lost i don know what to do , maybe just gonna follow my heart . nobody can help me with this . a feeling god giving me the second chance to re-make this decision . not feel like choosing but i knew i have to . no choice !! hmm .. hatfa face everythin !!

kinda sad , today also last day of jan soh in convent . even we're not close but still very sad . we used to recess and hav fun together for the one years plus time , this period of time may be kinda short but not gonna forget about it . jan , do visit us whenever you are free alright !! this also our blur family' first photo with all members !! finally seh .

not gonna think much and just enjoy the freedoms we getting back from PMR .. gonna work d , starting from tomorow !! so curious sia .. hatfa work to earn money !! happy !! tmr we are skipping school to rest at home !! woohoo .. today kinda happy one .

babi jumbo,

cheer noe .

not to think so much, relax kayy..

guai arr..

alwix rmb that you are not alone ,

donkey with you

takecare alwix..

frens , just enjoy our wonderful holidays beh !!

have fun ya .

grrrrrrr!!

2009-09-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

i never c dis kind of ppl b4,
Dare to dislike ppl but don dare to admit??
Wad we did n offended u??
We live for our life,
is der anythin to do wit you??
Eventhough we do have attitude prob,
d same goes to you!!!
Pls think b4 you tok,
thinkin bout yourself b4 u comment abt others.
We don mind to accept ur comments if the are acceptable..
Lastly,
we still wil live our life..
even that you dislike..

idk

2009-08-30T17:42:00.003+08:00

i don know everything !!

seriously don know what you thinking rite now !!

but i gonna cherish everything that i having now ,

hope you too .

拥有是应该好好珍惜而不是等到失去后才要去珍惜那一切都太迟了

>.<

2009-08-30T17:37:00.001+08:00

i miss you , alot alot !!

seven years already ..

so fast !!

really fast !!

haix ..

you alwix live in my heart ..

different

2009-08-30T17:33:00.002+08:00

all the feeling are different , seriously different !!
what wrong actually ??
noboby know i think , haix .. changing and changing !!
nobody know what is going on the next seconds ..
just hope that nothing go wrong , hope everything will be back like last time
i miss last time !!

WHY

2009-08-30T17:21:00.003+08:00

just why ??

i didnt know that actually you care about it ,

and ..

im sorry ya !!

woohoo !!

2009-08-30T17:16:00.002+08:00

finally get to online now, mom reset all the passwords !! but i still able to online thanks to my bro !! trial is over , and i think my papers gonna be very wonderful !! haix haix !! holidays are boring !! being maid at home for 2 weeks , cham wei !! no salary one !! nevermind ..

im bored enough =D

tagged by ahwen , natt , jeffeny

2009-08-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

1. What have you been doing recently?-msging,dreaming and thinking of something
2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?-my phone is dead
3. What happened at 10am today?-waiting to go for recess
4. When did you last cry?-last month ??
5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?-yes i do
.6 . What do you want in life now?-happiness and whatever i want
7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?-no
8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?-ofcoz sleeping
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?-shorts
10 . What are the nicest things in your inbox?-massenges
11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?-no
12 . Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?-no
13 . What was the last movie you caught?-transformers
14 . What are you proud of ?-i donno ??
15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?- (didnt drink enough water.bla bla bla) -by stefi
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?-happy birthday
17. Do you have any nicknames?-ya
18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?-(obviously u cn catch up de mah..haha..athlet leh .. haha )- by edlyn
19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?-12 something
20. Are you currently happy?-kinda
21 . Who gives you the best advice?-depends on the matters
22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?-once
23 . Who do you talked to on phone last night?-my cousin-alvin
24 . Is something bugging you right now?-donno
25 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?-manda
26.Do you like yourself?-in some way ?? i donno
27.Do you think you are stupid sometimes?-ya super duper !
28.Who is your best friend?- u guys should noe who you are !!
29.What will you do if you like that boy?-donno
30.Who are your favourite stars?-donno
.31.You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?-nope
32.Do you had even stead before?-donno
33.what type of boy do you like?-caring n loving
34.Now are you single/attached?-single
10 person i tag: Amanda, adeline,edlyn, Pei Shi, Yi Harn, Stefi, Szelynn,yubei,jan-nah,jan-boss

my phone is dying

2009-08-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

sad case weii , my phone in the dying state in a sudden !! but thx manda for borrowing me the extra phone . not get to use it yet but soon !! hopefully , my phone will be alright very soon !! now it going to icu !! argh .. i lost all the contact weii !!

am i doing the rite decision ??

2009-07-31T23:01:00.002+08:00

woohoo ,
i don know why she will came in my contact list first of all ,
and don know why we will start massenging and chatting .
but ,
i just found that she is a nice gal ,
nice frenz and so on ..

im touch when i received that msg she sent to me ,
when the very first i received her msg i thought that just a forwarding msg or lame msg .
but ,
after reading it ,
i felt so touching and surpising me ..
she actually ask about everything .

in this period of time ,
we having lame' chatting and those serious matters ..
we both know each other not bad well ..
when the moment feel sad or what ,
she is the one who be by my side ..
the same go thru to her !!!!
i still cant believe that
we both can actually talk about everything no secrets weii ..
is so damn sudden !!!!!!!

hmmm ......................................................................................
but i hope i made a rite decision !!!!!
fate behhhhhhhhhhhh.........
hope my feeling wont go wrong ..
lolxx
thx god to present me this frenz ..

many things we do not know ,
but
something i can comfirm ,
she is beta than her .
alot alot !!!!!!!!!
they both just came from diffence world !!!!!!!!!
she might be the one ????????????
who know >?<
nobody know what will happen on the next second ..
cherishing .............

never look at what hav lost

always look at what you got !!!

iamgoingtomad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-31T22:51:00.003+08:00

suddenly , feel that dying is scaly . i got no idea what or why make me think of this , just thinking and looking at the news , stories and more already feel it is scaly .one of my frenz asked me if i know that my life just leave with the last 15 minutes what am i going to do .. seriously im thinking the real answers, i got no idea what i will do if it happening. but i just hope that go without any regret !!!!!!

i think i am mad weii rite now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrgh ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

i cant even know what the hell im thinkin laaaaaaaaaa ......just wanna to bang my head on the wall , so damn stupid la .. ish ish ish !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant even let myself to calm down and think of the problems .. but nothing happen also .. crazy liao me

trial !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-31T22:50:00.001+08:00

leave with 2 weeks !!!!!
omg laaa..
but ,
good luck everyone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jiayou

lalalala

2009-07-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

haix, not in mood for this few days . i got no idea what is wrong with me . so damn pekcek de !!!!!!!!!!!!! argh ...

in just a sudden way , i realized many thing around had change.

is so scaly ,

have changed alot of thing ,

just came to a dream .

hope everything will go back like what used to it ..

hello

2009-07-25T19:54:00.001+08:00

I'm bored!

bye. "/

=D

2009-07-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

to ahban, laoda yubei, boss jan, laopo-nat , edlyn , jeffeny, ah lung and fanshu

hee..
not to worry liao arr ..
feli is alright now !!
no more sadness liao
i will be the crazy kia again weii
no more emo kia !!!!!!!!!!!!
haha ..
so same to you all lehh , must be happy happy oso de lo !!!!!!!!!!!
thx thx weiii ^^
thx for concernin me and everything ya !!!!!!!!
kaka ..

i wish all of my frens will be happy happy everyday !!!!!!!
no sadness around liao !!
just happiness is allowed !!
woohoo
must be happy go lucky arr everyone
don moody also lehh

wondering

2009-07-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

hahaha ..
im so curious weii
tmr manda harn wen ade n me are going for duty weii

lolxxxxxxx

2009-07-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

hmm ,
i shall say thx ...
thx for everything that you done for me ..
as well sorry for making you moody o what ,
but but but ,
i dowan you to moody o what anymore kay ??
promise me know .
i wan you to be happy happy de hor ..

i'will alwiz der for you no matter whats going on ..
**take care ya **

finally

2009-07-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

i made up my mind ,
is time for me to let go ............
just hope everyone will be happy !!!!!!

why why why

2009-07-07T16:57:00.002+08:00

why why why ??

who can tell me the answers ??
in this world really full of why , full of wondering
without answers !!

tired of guessing !!
i dowan think dowan guess liao

7 of july

2009-07-07T16:31:00.002+08:00

such a nice date weii .
but not seem to be a nice day la . not really happy because of what i also do have any idea la . jus felt that is not happy ..

well ,
i made up my mind !!
i wanna work after pmr weii . talk about pmr seriously SCALY ..
huhuxx

i hope i am thinking much , pray that nothing will happen !!
jiayou behh everyone !!

hmm

2009-07-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

if i can choose ,
i rather stay in msging ..
huhuxx
that is much beta !!

3 of july

2009-07-04T10:47:00.004+08:00

happy birthday to sis alicia !!!

tired of pakating !!
lol
but for jan n manda la !!
went redbox with our star-jan , manda , ade, nat, harn,jenny, yubei , blur nesse , nessa chang, wendy boo ( fang fei ji kia ) , elleena , ah sit to celabrate jan birthday !!

cherish ~

2009-07-04T10:47:00.001+08:00

if can i will cherish it ..
i promise

h1n1

2009-06-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

h1n1

everyone must take care owhh !!
drink more water noe !!
jiayou jiayou

tired !!!

2009-06-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

lalala
im so tired !!
i wanna hav a rest oso cant !!
stupid la so noisy !!
ishhh

premier 2009

2009-06-25T15:30:00.019+08:00

premier !!

19,20,21 of june !!!

(sorry for late post)

netball convent j.b

me with captain

me n mei foong

at the beach

penutup !!!

the three of us

me wenxin and ade

me n ade

manda n me

me wenxin manda

u18 team,

at the court

at the beach behind our hostel

after register

haha , tmr wil be the one week i got back from premier game. seriously enjoyed there, that 3days really got alot of fun weii .. thx everyone !! hope still got the chance to go for premier game !!

my mind already set !!

2009-06-09T15:13:00.002+08:00

i was thinking about this long time ago.
i do not know that whether i should trust you or trust others .
i am really confuse and i do not know what to do .
i try to think about this from so many ways .
but i still cant get the real answer.
then by this monday i hatfa give a answer
haixx
hope that i wont make the wrong decision ..
and the both of us wont regret about what we're doing now.

actually before your birthday i was planning about this long time ago.
but ..................... you let me know about something that i've shouln't have wanna know.
how dare you lie to me?????
i did ask you about this for few time
and yet you didnt tell me the truth .
until someone told me
that kind of feeling is like so damn kek
and you should know that i hate people lying to me .
is hurt actually
and so damn disappointed

after a period of time ,
i did try to give you many chances
but ..........................
in the end still the same .
haixx
i should listen to what they all said to me .

i am not a stupid fool like you think i am !!!!!!!!
i had all this enough !!!
thanks for acting like you care !!

seriously ,

i do not know which sentence you told me is the truth

which sentence is false..

i wont even know weii

stop here .

something is gone means gone ,

there will never be a second chance

even i did say its your last chance

but this time i will mark my words and it will never change again

i wont ever ever ever pity you anymore !!!

............................

2009-06-09T14:57:00.002+08:00

hmmm ..
i hope that she will be back the person who she is .
as soon as possible .
coz i do not want her to be like how she is now .
is like so damn xin tong when i see like dis
stop stop stop !!
you are not those emo kind , emo do not suit you at all !!
trust me
come on fren , jiayou to be back the person you are last time !!

no matter whats going on ,

feli promise that will be there for her

and wont let anything bad happen to her

feli will try her v v best for her ~~

as long as she is alright then everything will do ..

anything happen feli wil support and help her til the end of the time

haix

feli wil stay strong for it !!

never giv up !!

so we jiayou together kay ???

no matter how long will it take ,

im still here !!

to ahban , boss and laoda !!

thx u v v much =)

the crazy feli will be back as fast as it can !!

hmm

2009-06-08T15:07:00.002+08:00

times really changed the world,
times changed a person easily .

so many people around are changing .
some changed to be a beta people
but
some are changing to a people that i do even know.

the one who used to be so close . she did change.
she reli changed to a person that i don even know her before .
so scaly .

used to be good fren and yet now became stranger and even enemy
used to be a close fren but now .....
huhuxx
i reli donno whats wrong actually !!
i'm reli tired with dis

she used to be so nice but now she had even said that to me ..
something can be joke but something cant !!
not just onli me realize dis . my frens do .
i tot u had change to be a beta person but u didnt !!
i donno the mario will jump in which "tong" ..
seriously
she did make me so disappointing .
not i dowan to reply hers masseges is i don know how to reply !!
sorry

....

2009-06-08T15:02:00.002+08:00

sometimes there is no next time,
no second chance ,
no time out sometimes its now or never.

never look at what you have lost alwix look at what you have got !

7th again

2009-06-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

happy happy !!
n finally she can rest well
wow
time flied so so fast

~holidays~

2009-06-08T13:24:00.001+08:00

holidays so so bored !!
went pahang for 3 days and 2 nitex with my family ~~
friday to sunday ~~
sit in the car til my butt pain onli reach cherating ~
we were buzy findin resort !!
my uncle' idea
no nit to book any hotel or resort before we going
we used 1 hour plus to turn here turn der jus to find a resort !!
finally got a resort with 5 rooms
is so damn jipak weii ..
we paid for sufferin like tat

toilet do hav any lock,

the toilet is so kampung!

aircon hav spoil,

fan do not hav cover,

the beds is so kanasai ,

do not hav any blanket,

and

at nitex do not hav electicity!!

argh

in my 14 plus years life ,

this is the most jipak hotel that i ever went !!

cherating duyang resort

haix

this is the lesson la ,

so must book hotel before going to holidays !!

my cousins and me were in a same room

we complained like mad ppl (but no use)

but the view of sea is reli reli worth it to stay in the jipak hotel !!

we played volleyball with those kiddo and olddo !!

im bad as usual !

lol

my uncle and aunt were buzy catching fishes !!

so nice lehh ..

is tired but fun !!

we were for our dinner at the seaside

so cold sia ..

after that went walking with cousins ..

orang bandar went kampung

and my bro did say a line to make all of us laugh like mad ~

kampung busuk

kampung banyak nyamuk

kenapa nak datang kampung??

stupid kia la him ..

went back the stupid resort ..

waipiang

no electicity !!

stupid

we were callin to complain one by one !!

lolxx

the next day ,

around 9 ady don hav breakfast !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kek lo !!

hatfa drive til out of cherating to hav our breakfart ..

finally check-out !!

sat in car again to kuantan ~

we went a gua

wanted go for rock climbing

but til the end jus wynn n me went up !!

so tired

we like jog to the end..

haha

we two sweat like hell

kaka

but is reli worth it lohh

the view reli nice ..

hahaxx

we took like half an hour den the rest hafta wait for 2 of us !!

lolx

we went for lunch !!

so damn slow lo

my aunt ever ask my cousins and me go and cook !!

we almost stand up but the foods came !!

hahazz

we took half of the day to seach for hotel again

we turn the whole kuantan to find a hotel

we went every hotel to check whether stil hav rooms available ~~

til tired

keep changin ppl to go n check ~~

one of my cousin bro said:

dad, why so hard to find a hotel ??

haiya

next time we build one hotel that dis problem can be solve

omg

when my aunt told us we laugh like hell wei !!

wow .

finally gt a hotel hav rooms available !!

but jus 3 VIP rooms ~~

at 1st jus two , but the d end we got 3 rooms

lucky gt 1 more room if not i wil be sleeping on the floor too ..

haha ..

went for dinner after kiddo swimming ..

we hav a wonderful dinner

so ful sia

ate super alot

sotong bakar . ikan bakar . sipu . chicken wings. fried rice . mee . rojak .

my supper is ice creamss !!

my cousins idea

lolx

so paiseh that my cousins were teman me to wait for 12o'clock(7th of june ) !!

kaka

four of us were sleepin on the bed

slept til so xin ku weii

then

bro cousins slept at floor !!

wakakakakakakakak !!

next day ,

went breakfast den shopping

and go back jbee

seriously

bored

i totally agreed with manda !!

haha

u gonna anti fried rice weii

i had it for 3 days

lunch dinner even breakfast !!

haha

but hav fun with family lo !!

reached home around 10 smth ..

stil my bed is the best

haha !!

outing

2009-06-08T13:17:00.003+08:00

3 of june
went jusco with ade(birthday gal ) , js, manda, harn,wen, nat, eileen, szelynn, my sis to celebrate ade beleted birthday ~~
went redbox ~~
so fun sia on tat day !!
n
my plan is working !!
(manda noe why )

4 of june
went to jj court for badminton
im late for 2 hour ..
paiseh paiseh
we had our lunch at pizza hut ~~

oosp ~

ter made my mom angry ~

but she didnt even sco me !!

suprised !!

sorry that went back super early

but at least my plan is sucessful !!

stop stop

2009-05-31T02:09:00.000+08:00

lolxx
stop being lame weii i tel you !!
kaka
then how ?/
you think a way lo

kaka
you don forgot what you said hor !!!!!
kaka

ahban

2009-05-31T01:42:00.001+08:00

lolzz
i'm being lame weii
i shall stop it ~~
not me onli can
you too

kaka
ya la
hopefully i can go
seriously i not mind sia
come la
i pei u to wait for the ans

lolzz
u sure u wan me to say here ??
later your wallet got a hole weii

lol

2009-05-31T01:32:00.003+08:00

do you know this ??

is lame not cool kay !!

ofcoz for you 're two piece of cake la !!

kaka

if reali go true arr

u don forget smth lo i tel u

ooi !! chou amanda

2009-05-31T01:25:00.001+08:00

hmm
is tat so ??
kaka
im laughin to my comp can ??
later my mom tot i crazy
siao man

no problem la
a piece of cake only
we surely will help
omg
i realized something
~~
3 of june
we're actually will be at the same place
u come stay over my house la want ??

im looking forward

2009-05-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

hee =)

im looking forward on many thing weii

7th of june
outings (adeline' celebretion, badminton matches )
jusco outing
3th of june (manda know why)
wenjin'stuff

hope everything that im looking forward wont let me down ..

don disappoint me d ~~

AMANDA

2009-05-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

lol ~~
thx for answering my question man
kaka
and
you're the pig ~~
u cant smack me
coz i havnt post den you say u gonna smack me
lalalalalalalalala

=(

2009-05-30T23:32:00.002+08:00

sad case la weii
see-ing the ba zhang
let me think about something that is really hurt ~~
i don know whether i still got the chance and get to eat the ba zhang she made ~
hopefully i got the chance
but is like 0.000001 percent over 100 percents ~~
so long time i didnt even youch ba zhang
everytime wanna giv a try but the end im pekcek wit it
all so not nice de ba zhang how to eat ??
haixx

im start thinkin all the stuff about her !!
i seriously imissher
she is the one who look after me for 12 years since i were a baby. but forced by some reason to leave me here .. sobxx

i will alwix be the ah-bee you knew never change !!that is my promise ~

after all you still are the one i care i love i respect !!

the grandma who used to dore on me ..

i never angry of you for leaving me

i knew your situasions

i hope that thing can change back to the happy moment

why for quarrel over a stupid thing ??

iszit it is much importatnt than a family ??

haix

anything will do

until now the 4th years is coming ..

i not think so u can do anythin for it

is too late !!

i will never forgive you !!

(to the one turn everything out til like this )

even one day later i meet you at anyway i wont even look at you

i hate you so damn much

with all my heart

trust me

in your whole life time ,

u will never get my forgivness

even u gave me back my dearie ahma !!

u had gave us empty promises

you really let dad down ~~

haixx

everything turn out like this coz of you

you had spoil the big family

i do not hav a aunt like you !!

for that day you force ahma go with you

you and me already became

strangers~

to the ahma i loving alwix~

in my heart will be a place for you which cant replace by ANYONE
you hatfa take care yourself
hope that you will be happy
hope we can get a chance to meet
hope that you are alwix fine and healthy
lastly , i miss you alot !!

(thx ya jenny for the snail ba zhang and be by my side,,)

take care ya

2009-05-30T23:29:00.001+08:00

ooi some fanshu who is going to competition !!
make sure you take care !!
drink more water !!

~IMISSYOU~

friday 29 of may

2009-05-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

on this friday seriously alot of thing happened .
don know should say is sad or happy ~

on the morning around 8 something ,
naomi came to our class called for training !
we actually having trainin before our last paper ~
this is cool ~
lolx

after training ~
manda gav her the present and thing had change !!
do not give me that zhuai face
let me warn you this!!
now you do not have manda to back you liao ~~
think before do something or talk something !!
manda jiayou arr !!
i hope you can alwix be happy !!
must be happy !!
happier than the past !!

when back class , everyone got their sejarah paper exp me !!!
argh
teacher don let me to know my marks !!
sitting for my last exam paper ..
no mood lo !!.someore think about my chinese paper two !!
haix

finally the moment i waitin for so long is arrived !!
ah wen and me were running to the cs !!
crazy la us
hmm
we are running out of time to catch the movie at 12.45 !!
damn malu but no choice !!
we reached cs ~finally~
wow
we actually rush for nothing coz the movie start at 1.15 !!
after changing we went to look for old ppls !!
lolx
happy weii ~~
but ended-up with bushuang-ness and awkwadness .
sad lo ofcoz (hope still got chances )
haixx

happy or sad ???
i don know

welcome manda !!

2009-05-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

welcome ya manda for joining my special group !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
single reactngle and triangle !!!
throw away your sadness kay !!
not worth it !!
jiayou arr
we will alwix here for u !!
u will never be alone !!
we are alwix here for u to lead on !!!!!!!!!!!!
kaka
smile ya ~~

乱!!

2009-05-30T22:54:00.002+08:00

fan weii
don really know what am i thinking now ~~
haixx
hope everything can go fine la ~~
hope everyone will be happy !!
as soon as possible
jiayou everyone !!

i am back

2009-05-30T22:47:00.002+08:00

finally ,
exam is just over !!
and
im back to save my blog.. my friendster and those stuff ~~
not really can relax
im owing eva 18 set of modal papers !!!!!
i will pass up my works not to worry ya eva ~~
gosh ..but i not think so i can get my target la ~~
haixxxxx !!!
hatfa work double hard !!

damn fed up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

what the hell ??
u sco me coz i didnt pick up ur calls .. and yet i in tui !!!!!!!!
argh ~~
donno wad is wrong with you !!!!!!!!!
i doubt
hmmm
u sco me for not answering ur scolding ??
later i answer den i kena again
seriously ,
i donno wad to say abt dis matter ~~
u stop me for going tui ??
wadde
u wait la wait !!
i still wil be the winner after all !!

time makes people change~~

2009-05-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

time changed the world ~
time changed people too !!

u're really changed !!!!!!!!
i donno how to say ~~
haix
hopefully can see the old ' u !!!!!!!!!!

7 of may

2009-05-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

wonderful ~
happy -one word !!
kaka
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
hope u're happy too !!!!!!

happy advance birthday mummy !!

2009-04-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

happy birthday mummy !!
(advance )

wish that mummy hav a happy birthday !!
thx mummy for everything
and sorry too !!!
ILY mummy !!

congrat ya nat and chong xn !!

2009-04-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

lolxx
finally weii ~~
im the lawyer !!
kaka ~~
wish u too all the best !!
stay for long life time kay ^^