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you !!
i don know what language should i tok with you .
i don know what should i tel you .
i don know what are you thinking .
i don know what is wrong with you .
i jus donno !!
why a small matter you must sco like i murder somone ??
like an outing ??
i asked you for few time not jus once kay ??
you are the one hu allow, but you are the one hu sco me n create problem .
not the first time anymore .
nit to shout like somone gonna kill you or smth ??
ishh ..
you !!
spoiled my birthday !!
even birthday u also cant stop naggin and scolding .
well ,
i am really really disappointed !!
first year of my birthday , tears drop .
thx to you !
i don care abt the cake ,
but you reli made me v v v sad abt the way u are now !!
you sco me , i keep quiet den you sco again for keep quiet !!
you sco me , i voice up den you said i tok back !!
wadde hell la ??
den wad you wan me to do ??
run away from house and igrone you ??
seriously i will if you still forcing me like dis !!
i admit , on times i lost control and tok back .
but ,
i reli cant stand it anymore .
i jus wanna say out wad i thinking of u ,
but i wont tok to u face by face ,
jus to igrone quarrel wit u .
do you think i like to be like now ??
no i don !!
i told myself i will tahan ..
but i failed !!
i ady donno wad reason should i tel myself to tahan !!
hmm ..

whenever i said smth , u ask me not to compare with others .
but .
you like to compare !!
but u never think of urself !!
how others behave is totally diff from you !!
you keep blame me for being like now ,
dont think u hav to think abt urself before blaming me ??
do u think u are alwix on the right side ??
as mom ,
you wil be wrong at times ,
why dont you admit ??
alwix lookin at the way u sco dem ,
it is hurtful !!
and now
is my turn !!
der fight or wad ,
i sco dem den you sco me for scolding or beat dem up .
but if i don ??
you sco me for not being a good sis !!
wadde ??
den wad should i do ??
you alwix blame sharon or alicia jus coz of ben ??
do you noe how der both will feel ??
how i feel ??
honestly ,
i gettin to hate him more and more !!
al ur fault !!

why cant you be patient and giv us time to express how we feel ??
i think dis wil be much beta than everyday get ur scolding and nagging ??
why cant you de more understanding ??

i noe u stress abt ur job ..
but shouldnt throw ur anger on me rite ??
haixxx ..
i reli don feel like toking to u !!
i rather go work !!
at least no nit to listen to ur wonderful voice !!
argh !!
you reli drive me crazy !!
coz of u ,
dis year is my worst birthday that i never hav in my 15 years of life !!

i.am.really.sorry.for.what.i.have.made.you.angry.or.down.
i.hope.you.will.change.

haha ..
thanks you guys for giving me a nice birthday !!
went out with nat early on the morning , met junwen , peishi and her cousin !! we catched a movie !! jump !! is lame but is nice .. lol .. went sunflower to met manda , jan and harn !! haha .. didint noe jan n manda wil be der !! kaka ..
suddenly , face some stupid problem !! ishh , but nat settled it !! thx ya !! hmm .. went badminton with dem too , met yubei and cindy at court !! haha .. first time of seeing harn and peishi swimming !! lol ..

our miss Yubei fetch us to somewhere for steamboat i think at taman molek bahh .. not sure .. haha.. i was really suprised , edlyn you bluff me la ?? lol ..

thanks alot alot to Edlyn , manda , harn , nat , peishi , cindy , jan and yubei for giving me a great celebration !!
thanks to everyone who wished me !! by msg , in facebook or call !!

thanks alot alot !! i am finally 15 !! woohoo !!