felt so bad !! me actually forgot that mom birthday is on this sat .
i keep thinking is on the next sat .luckly we discussed about the plan of going to library, onli i knew labour day is on this sat !! siao liao la me . havnt order cake . card not yet draw . i not mean it one . too blur ady . sorry sorry . pls don tel my mom . hee .








H.A.P.P.Y.
just.have.a.talk.with.babi.thru.the.phone.
miss ya babi <333333333333333333333333333

i can sleep with a smile on my face d .
no more tears on my face .
finally !!
i am so happy !!!
wakakakakakakakak











you're forgiven .
iloveyoumorethaneverything.

babi babi !!
happy one month anniversary .

we shall think back to 13th of feb ?
we start msging since that chinese new year's wishing msg .
everything start from tat msg .



i do not wnt anything ady .
i jus wan u to be happy .
seriously .tat all !






i willing to do anything for it .
as long as one day she still in ur heart .
i doubt u can giv me the chance to gain everything .
or anything .
so yeah , evearything hust depends on you .




anwyays .
takecare alwix !
loveeee

having fun during history class !!so long time never play til so siao liao .happy happy ..but feel so bad to scare sl .
sorry la ..
yu sian chin , lung sze lynn !
how dare you to put xiao qiang inside my pencil case ?? halfway studyin sej , i put the fake lizard on sl shoulder . haha . is so damn fun . we wanted to throw the fake lizard to 4pa3 !! but didnt get to scare them . haha .wl threw the xiao qiang to me . then teacher saw n rampas it !! sad wei ..
lung , thx u arr . i hav fun today !!






woohoo , tmr so gonna make sushi !!
coconut tree mummy !!
thx u for everything tat u hav do for me.
being my side when i am sad or happy .
we went thru kinda alot of stuff together , did we ?
u reli reli accompany me alot alot .
u comforted me .
tel me joke .
even came out with a lie jus wan me to let go of my anger .
want me to bo happy.
but , i wont throw my anger to you one la !!
haha..
i am much better ady mummy .
the siao de coconut is back !!
i really appreacieted .
how lucky am i to have a great fren aka mummy like u !
if jus now u reli outside my house rhen i seriously gonna be super touch til cry wei .
haha .
i wont let all dis to effect my mood n sudies .
i promised u that u wil get to see me in courts !!
really thx alot :)
ly !!





laoda yb ,
haha . i wont cry de !!
or else u must think how to comfort me .
i make ur life easier la hor ??
still ,
thanks you so so much !!
for lending me ur ears !!
and evertything .
thx thx =)




stone !!
thxxx alot alot hor !!
i wil giv u stone as a present to thx u !!
haha ..






dhd!!
that is to much of word i wanna tel u !
conclusion la ?
thx alo alot .
evan i am not suppose to thx you .
but u must accept it hor !!







so yeah ,
thanks alot to those company me n be der with me !!

woah ,
i am just speechless.
i don know what feeling me should have .
sad ??
angry ??
disappointed ??
i not think i am just disappointed or sad.
maybe sad n disappointed til no feeling d .
is hurtful to hav this kind of feeling .
this kind of feelin didnt appear in my life for quite a long time , but now coming back again .
sigh .
it sucks to the core .
seriously ,
out of billion of words , i cant find a single word for my feeling .
feeling like crying but don hav tear to cry .
can you imagine how sad this case is ??
what should i do ?
should i voice up or something ?
or mayb continue to be mute ?
jus keep my mouth shut ?
this is what can i do for the sake of don blow thing bigger ??
maybe like dis thing wont hav any quarrelment ?
but i doubt thing can settle ,
i am so coward now. is so not me .

god please tell me what should i do ?
let go and move on ?
for the sake of letting her to feel better?
if this gonna work , i not mind .
but ,
if isn't work ?
hmmm .


all this jus like a dream for me .
but this is a truth that i hafta face it .
so yeah , feli come on !!
i doubt how strong can i be .



kinda alot of ppl telling me ,
this place not belongs to someone n yet is others .
at first ,
i really confident that i had made a correct decision .
but now ,
i got no idea why ,
all my confident just gone ?


maybe i'm not as good as her or something .
i knew that she matter u alot.
she was , and she is stil .
i daren't to compare anything with her .
n yet .
i think is useless to compare .
2 years time compare to one month ,
got a big distance d .
i don ask anything else ,
other than ,
i wan u to be happy .
hmm .
but i will always do my best for u alright .
i not gonna force you to do anything you not willing to .
as long as you will be happy ,
den i willing to do anything for it .
even let go .
although is so hard n hurt for myself .
but i don care n don mind.
i jus hope that u will be happy .
is that so so hard ?
if myself cant bring any happiness to u ,
den i shall jus draw out n giv the chance to someone can make u happy .


me as a human being ,
ofcoz i MIND .
I MIND THAT YOU STILL CANT PUT DOWN.
I MIND THAT YOU STILL LOVE .
I MIND THAT YOU STILL LIVE UNDER THE DARK.
I MIND . I MIND . I MIND .
but ,
there is nothing that i can do .
is coz ,
iloveyoutoomuch.morethatwhatareyouthinking.










i.am.so.speechless.
i.am.so.helpless.
i.am.so.useless.
i.am.so.coward.
nitex .

i don know what is going on .
i don know what actually happened .
i don know what can i do .
i don know what feeling should i have .
i don know what i am thinking .

gosh .
i realyy don know anything about it .
feel damn useless .
helpless .


seems that everything is okay but actually isn't .
now ,
i just feel like go to you and sort everything out .
but .
too bad i can't .


can someone tell me what is happening ??
feeling tells me that is a far distance .
i don want .

come on babi .
don sad d .
i dowan u to sad
i rather to take all this sadness from u
whenever u're sad ,
i am ever sad than you do.
whenever u're happy ,
i am ever happy than you do .
do u noe abt this ?
i just only told manda then is actually what u mention about .
gosh
i can predict future .
my feeling is just right .











































18 days only ,
second time !!
u're jus great !!

i typing with 8 fingers now .
is so damn slow !!
and cacat .

all thanks to fang .
play basketball like playing what only .
sigh .
senget weii .
swollen someore .
tsk tsk .
pain sia .


get well soon ya my poor fingers !!

omg.
i don know why i am sad .
actually i know , but don know how to explan.
jus kind of feeling .
maybe jus miss her too much behh ..
hugging the smelly shirt .
feel much better.
haix haix .
unbelievable that imissbabi so much .
hope that she will be back as soon as possible .
but,
school still gonna reopen .
sigh

hmm.
i don care,
no matter what is going on.
no matter how far apart are we .
no matter whatever or anythng happen .
my heart still with you .


whenever you are facing any problem ,
whenever you are sad or down,
whenever you are not feeling well ,
turn back , i will be at there with you .
you are nt alone kay ??

just a silent heart here ,
to pray that you in a sound and safe condition .
that is enough .


and ya ,
for your information.
do not have any carrot exist in my world .
all already became carrot juice.
my heart is just small and nice to keep you inside there .
with full of lock .



hmmm ,
just abit of awkwardness whenever i see her .
just feel bad towards her and her .
that not gonna be a problem between we both .
i beleive .






sign ,
babi!!
missyou alot alot :(
heart !!
nitex ya babe ..
huggie

14th of april.
hello .
hi.
edlyn heng !
happy 5th months annivesary ya .
thx u for the pooh , is reli cute wei .
he is on my bag ..
haha ..
and the paper hearts n chocolate ya .
doesnt matter wad present u gave, as long as that is from u den i wil like .
thx alot ya :)




SORRY FOR NOT COMING FOR YOUR CELEBATION HOR !!!!!!
haha..
surpised rite ??
haha..
who asked u to bluff me last year.
don know hu arr went muar!!
den now u kena lo .



15th of april.
some monkey' birthday ya .
wondering who is the monkey hor ??
edlyn heng !!
kay la ,
happy birthday ya mei .
may god bless u in everythin that u do .
must buck up for ur studies hor i don care .
or else u noe la.
so yeah ,
must enjoy ur day ya !!
someone surely happy lo so many present !!
oi ,
must handle wit care ar tat wallet !!
i don care
or else u know la
hergh
haha.
lastly,
happy sweet 15th ya
smile alwix.
stay crazy .
all the best ya sis !!
i heartyoualot..
huggie !!

my blog is so damn died .


i just came back from badminton competition. we actually "pacat kaki " during badminton .funny betul la . tired tired !!




recently ,i don know what feeling should i hav .i don ever what we both thinking about .i think we really have communication problem .i just tired of holding something that i not feel like holding anymore.i think let go is gonna be a better way .i'm sorry to say this but i doubt i can take it anymore.sigh . just wait and see la . speechless .






28th .
i love this date wei .iloveyousomuchlababi.
just great to hav a babi like you . hee .