woah ,
i am just speechless.
i don know what feeling me should have .
sad ??
angry ??
disappointed ??
i not think i am just disappointed or sad.
maybe sad n disappointed til no feeling d .
is hurtful to hav this kind of feeling .
this kind of feelin didnt appear in my life for quite a long time , but now coming back again .
sigh .
it sucks to the core .
seriously ,
out of billion of words , i cant find a single word for my feeling .
feeling like crying but don hav tear to cry .
can you imagine how sad this case is ??
what should i do ?
should i voice up or something ?
or mayb continue to be mute ?
jus keep my mouth shut ?
this is what can i do for the sake of don blow thing bigger ??
maybe like dis thing wont hav any quarrelment ?
but i doubt thing can settle ,
i am so coward now. is so not me .

god please tell me what should i do ?
let go and move on ?
for the sake of letting her to feel better?
if this gonna work , i not mind .
but ,
if isn't work ?
hmmm .


all this jus like a dream for me .
but this is a truth that i hafta face it .
so yeah , feli come on !!
i doubt how strong can i be .



kinda alot of ppl telling me ,
this place not belongs to someone n yet is others .
at first ,
i really confident that i had made a correct decision .
but now ,
i got no idea why ,
all my confident just gone ?


maybe i'm not as good as her or something .
i knew that she matter u alot.
she was , and she is stil .
i daren't to compare anything with her .
n yet .
i think is useless to compare .
2 years time compare to one month ,
got a big distance d .
i don ask anything else ,
other than ,
i wan u to be happy .
hmm .
but i will always do my best for u alright .
i not gonna force you to do anything you not willing to .
as long as you will be happy ,
den i willing to do anything for it .
even let go .
although is so hard n hurt for myself .
but i don care n don mind.
i jus hope that u will be happy .
is that so so hard ?
if myself cant bring any happiness to u ,
den i shall jus draw out n giv the chance to someone can make u happy .


me as a human being ,
ofcoz i MIND .
I MIND THAT YOU STILL CANT PUT DOWN.
I MIND THAT YOU STILL LOVE .
I MIND THAT YOU STILL LIVE UNDER THE DARK.
I MIND . I MIND . I MIND .
but ,
there is nothing that i can do .
is coz ,
iloveyoutoomuch.morethatwhatareyouthinking.










i.am.so.speechless.
i.am.so.helpless.
i.am.so.useless.
i.am.so.coward.
nitex .